Mistaken...

We met at college a few times & am too shy to say hello or give him a smile but I missed him so, hahaha.. Stupid!! I kept thnkin' dat his mad at me for sum reason but I was so wrong.. He juz to tired & havin' a flu.. Am so unreasonable thnkin' like dat toward him.. Wah, abg am so sorry!!

Urmm.. My mistake dat I thnk he ignored me.. Da truth is.. Well.. He didn't.. He juz wanna teach me to be more independent if his not around me or his too busy.. His intention is pure & I.. Huhuhu.. My mistakes! I shouldn't thnk like dat, rite? Aiyaa.. I felt dat am da stupidest person ever, waaaaaahhh..

After he explained da reason why he done dat, I felt so tiny & stupid.. But still I taken wat he said & will learned to be wat he want me to be.. Besides its not a stupid intention pun.. Its a very gud 1 kan? So why not I followed wat he juz told me kan?

Now, I can rest in peace (Not R.I.P for da dead person eh?!).. Am going to sleep & think +ve next time, huhuhu.. Oh yaa, before I forgot he told me dat he'll be busy within diz 2 days so I better keep dat in mind & try very hard not to disturb him.. Till next time, daa... 8)

Miserable...

I've waited for 2 years to find my Prince Charming.. After a very long search & flirting wif so many guys, I've find 1.. Rite under my nose, hahaha.. Diz guy is my junior @ my college.. His a bit shorter then me but still I luv him so.. His older then me.. His cute, sweet & romantic.. I luv him so much!! We've been 2gether for almost 2 months.. At 1st, I dun thnk his da 1.. Maybe I was too picky.. I want my lover to taller then me, handsome, solid bod, have a sence of humour, intelligent, romantic & most importantly he luv me wif all his heart!! But diz guy was the opposite & still I luv him so!! He treats me like I was everythng to him.. When I thnk bout him, I smiled.. His everythng dat I need for my perfect Prince Charming!!

Before we couple, he warned me not to fall entirely in luv wif him.. Da reason why he said dat was he dun wanna feel frustrated like wat he expirience before.. I too dun wanna fell like dat.. He juz clash wif his ex within diz year & I felt miserable for being lonely for 2 years now before I met him.. Urmm.. But still I can't hold myself to luv him wif all my heart!! B'coz when I fall in luv, I surely luv dat guy wif all my heart.. I can't help it coz its ME...

But when he suddently ignored me, I.. I.. Urmm.. I felt dat miserable me has come back!! I dun wanna be the old me again.. Its killin' me deep inside.. Its taken my reason to live.. I've done a few thngs dat scars me & it makes others worried.. Am feelin' meserable rite now & da old me is tryin' to get a grip of me.. But when I take a deep breath & think it over, thnkin' +ve.. I tell myself dat maybe his tired or maybe his busy studyin' or maybe his asleep.. But why he didn't tell me da reason his actin' strange 2day??

Hump.. Live is pathetic!! I used to dat.. But when I found him everythngs change.. I felt lively!! His my sun.. Shines my day wif happiness & hope for a better 2morrow.. Am tired of fellin' jealous but I still am wif him when he talks wif dat 2 girls!! I juz wanna.. Mmm.. Their his friends I juz can't simply say NO to them.. I will make me look.. Urmm.. I dunno wat to do & wat to feel now.. Am confused...

Mmm, maybe I need to lie down & thnk it over again.. I dun wanna lose my Prince Charming but 2day I feel like am gonna lose him sooner or later.. If he dun like sumthng bout me he should say it but da probs wif him is he keeps da probs to himself.. How am I suppose to improve myself to him if his like dat?! Its true when he said dat I make faces but I'll surely listen wat he told me.. Example.. He dun want me to wear my skirts, fine.. I didn't wear them & send all my skrits home.. He likes my pic wif a shorter hair, okay.. I cut my hair & I like em'.. Wat else he dun like? I'll change if its brings goodness in me...

Okay.. Am off to cry again, later...