Saturday, 2 January 2010

Happy...



Today is my last day (maybe) wif him.. And am glad dat we had a great time (eventho I cried juz now).. He make up wif me by going to my 2nd favorite place, Mc D.. Hoyeh..~ My 1st favorite place is Sushi King, hehehe.. I luuuurrvee sushi, yummy...~

Yet again, I cried after we arrived here (actually I tried not to cry but..) coz I'll be away for a month & I dunno wether I can.. Urmm.. I can survive & I will survived.. If am strong for da last 2 years being lonely surely I can survived without him being near me..

But still I'll rememba dat moment.. To tell da truth, his da best guy I found so far.. Other guys usually wants sumthng in return after I told them I like em' but diz guy (my love) is different.. They tends to take advantage of me since am easy to fall in lurve.. I dunno wether I can find sum1 like him or better than him.. And for now (and always) I luv him so much!!

His rite tho.. I should be strong when his not around me.. I should be & will be (even its hard).. I'll try.. Eventho its hard, very hard coz his not entirely fall in lurve wif me (maybe) I'll manage (hope so)..

When I looked in da sky,

I feel like I wanna fly,

For dat best thngs I've try,

Is I always rememba u by.

Huhuhu, I love my poem.. I've written diz poem a long time ago to present to sum1 I really luved & cared.. And I've found 1.. Basicly, I luv writing poem.. I write them when am happy, sad, deppressed, etc.. And sumtimes its luvely & sumtime its not, huhuhu.. I'll share my poems later yaa..


Next time I'll try to write my blog wif a nicer mood.. Happy mood.. And always be happy wif any1 whose around me.. Yeeaahh!! And after diz I went home & ask my momma for a piece of clothe dat she recently bought to make a new sweet 'sopan' dress, yeah2.. Can't wait to sew at home.. Am so happy & relieved now...

Okay then, am going to sleep.. Hope diz sweet dreams will last till eternity.. Sweet dreams then, daa...

Friday, 1 January 2010

Inside & outside...




I always write sumthng here when am sad or lonely.. Or juz.. But now am so sad.. Inside & outside.. It has always been my dream to go out wif him despites his condition.. Sumtimes I pushed him to say 'YES' but he always give a perfect reason dat I couldn't argue more.. I know him, I know his condition, his past life.. I know him very well but.. Sumtimes it drives me to be sad.. I luv him.. I know I luv him but.. When am to deppresed with him, I cried.. And I hate dat.. I wants to understand him inside & outside but sumtimes I failed to do dat.. I.. I wanna cry more.. Later...