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In Luv~

4 November 2009 ~ 16 February 2010

Break-ups...

16/2/10, 2250H: Juz now he had reply my msgs & its not a gud new.. Urmm.. To make things simple enough to understand.. Well.. HE DUMPED ME!! Hahaha.. How great is dat? Am back to square 1, finding my PRINCE CHARMING.....

17/2/10, 1308H: Am not fully recovered yet of wat have juz happen.. Am still moarning inside.. Still can get through diz situation yet.. But still trying to recover.. Still trying to patch diz heart up.. My, my.. If I cut my chest up & look at it.. Surely my heart doesn't look like a HEART.. Wif all da stiches, patches.. Hurmm, am so STUPID!! Wif all my exp wif guy still can get enough of it.. Still repeating da same mistakes over & over again.. Still crying for them, Still be da 1 whose regret it all, still be da 1 whose being FAITHFUL till the end..

I really tot dat diz is da guy dat I was searching for so long, my PRINCE CHARMING but again.. I was wrong.. I was mistaken..

When we 1st met, I was very afraid if I would fall in luv wif him.. I loves being single.. Not being tied wif any1 & I can do wat ever I want.. And its all bout me, myself & I.. No 1 else juz me alone.. But.. I dunno wat comes to me, deep down inside me.. Sumthing has grown inside my heart after our 1st meeting.. Sumthing dat has been there but could not grown after I try to suppressed it for so long.. Sumthing dat I've try to forget it, try to throw it away.. But it stays there, dormant.. Until dat very day I was crying in front of u, in front of everybody in dat small restaurant.. Dat sumthing has grown without me noticing it.. Dat sumthing is called LOVE...

Since dat day, I was very happy.. I tot dat everybody in diz world is caring, loving towards me.. My world is happier then ever.. I place my trust on u to luv me as I luv u.. I could think nothing else but u.. U makes my world brighter then ever.. Ur sweet smile, simple personality, firm attitude makes me luv u even more.. Ur different from my other couples & I like u for dat.. Wif u I learned sumthng precious, sumthing dat my other couples didn't mention it at all.. Which is.. "Do not luv u wif all my heart.. Save a lil bit to luv myself.. Coz loving u doesn't mean dat I'll have u".. But still am stupid enough to luv u wif all my heart & now look at me.. MISERABLE..

I tried not to rememba u.. Not to rememba our precious time wif each other.. But.. Its hard.. I still can believe dat u've DUMPED me.. Still can't accept dat truth.. But as far as I rememba.. I never say GOODBYE to a guy b4 & I didn't break dat record.. U did!! Hahahaha..

Urmm, I really hope dat I can forgive & forget u but I think I will take a very longer time.. B'coz I stayed single to heal my HEART for almost 2 years & am surely take a longer time to heal my wounds wif u.. In da mean time, I would have an empty space in my heart & will try to patch it dat up.. Mmm.. Now I would think dat da world is cruel, there's no happily ever after in the end..

Surely, I would cry in da mean time am try to patch my HEART up.. But I'll stay strong!! Try not to rememba u & live da life dat I'm in.. Be happy & smile.. And for u my dear, am still LOVING u for now but if u change ur mind.. Tell me quickly b4 my HEART is close to any1 else... <3 title="Broken Heart Myspace Comments" href="http://mnsls.com/broken-heart-6379.html">

Missed...

I missed him.. I missed him not.. I missed him.. I missed him not.. I missed him.. I missed him not.. I missed him.. I missed him not.. I missed him.. I missed him not...

I MISSED HIM!!