Its juz a dream, ain't it??

Today, pas tamat shif keje mlm.. Roy gi shopping!! Woohooo~ Seronok nak amat, hahaha.. Tp barangnyer nmpak cikit w'pon puluhan dah abis, huhuhu.. (Sorry Ma', xsengaja shopping melebihi bajet...) Dengan memakai sluar slek blouse kaler nude juga kasut itam flat, Roy berjalan not stop dari Berjaya Times Square ke Sg Wang ke Bukit Bintang.. Pergh! Sampai kaki & belakang sakit2 tp mmg best.. Dah lame xwat mcm tu, hahaha.. Sje bg body strain, bg body ni loose so dat esok so dat xyah keje.. MC 1 day, hahaha.. Tp xpnah jadi kenyataan pon.. Badan laa trima bahana dr otak yg menyusahkan.. Balik umah, hah.. Hamik ko! Sengal 1 badan, hahaha.. Sebab tu laa ske pegi sorang2 jadi lone ranger, senang.. Ley jadi giler berjalan dari setiap kedai yg Roy masuk, non stop.. Namun di pertengahan keseronokan yg tercipta ade event yg menyentuh jiwa...

Tadi, I juz found out dat am juz his friend not more than dat.. Woah!! Rase nak gugur je jantung ni dgar ayat dia (w'pon dia juz SMS) Dah laa kat shopping mall mcm nak nangis kat stu jugak.. Muke jgn cakap laa.. Merah cam udang kene bakar.. Sedey kecewa bercampur baur.. Tatau nak rase ape dah.. Mulanya, mmg menjangka jawapan tu yg akan di beri sbb baru je kenal pon tp.. Hahaha.. Hati perempuan kan?! Walau sekuat mana pon hati tu bile terjadi sesuatu sure nangis punyer.. Xterkecuali laa ngan hati ni.. Walawei, malu tu mengatasi semua perasaan laa!! Malu tahap dewa!! Dia sure xkisah tp yg Roy ni, waaaahhh~

Mmg laa, cinta & perasan tu xley di paksa, tu dah lame Roy tau tapi.. Hurmm.. Roy mmg malu tahap dewa laa.. But on the other hand, Roy sangt2 bersyukur kerna dia mengaku menyayangi diri yg xsempurna ni.. Tapi.. Roy tatau nak fikir ape dah.. Mcm dia cakap, ikot je flow tu.. (but dia tatau, tu ayat bg Roy maknenyer, 'ur not da 1' ataupun ayat lebey senang 'kte akan selamanya akan jadi kawan je, okay? Jgn perasan mau jadi lover aku yaa') Urmm.. Hanya tuhan je tau betapa goyah nyer jiwa ni bila dpt jawapn mcm tu.. Rase mcm.. Ntah, rase mcm kembali berseorangan mcm tu.. Kembali ke square one.. Mencari PRINCE CHARMING.. Tapi Roy dah jumpa, dia lah org nya tapi.. Bukan  pulak.. Hish, ne satu ni?! Konpius btol laa...

Rase macam mimpi je Roy slama ni, berasa hepi sangat ngan kehadiran dia dlm hidup ni tapi.. Tu bukan nightmare ke? Hurmm.. Ape ni sume? Roy bermimpi ke atau memang realiti dah mengejar Roy dari belakang & semakin dekat? Mmm, peningnyaa.. Sangt pening.. Ape yg benar skang ni? Perasaan Roy atau  realiti kehidupan yg sukar untuk di fahami? Otak Roy pnuh ngan persoalan tatau samada perlu di pasang lagu metal ketika menghayati diari ini atau lagu sedey, suram? Rase macam kegelapan ketika berseorangan mula merangkak masuk kedalam hati ni.. Wwaaahhh!! PERGI! PERGI!! Jangan kau ganggu perasaan yg mula jernih ini.. Jangan kau cemari perasaan ini dengan keraguan & kesangsian.. NYAH KAU DARI HATIKU, PERGI!!!

Da last bit of Memories~

Turn diz vid on so dat u can feel wat I felt when writing diz... *smiles*

Assalamualaikum...

Hope all of u are doing fine.. Urmm, its been along time since I update my blog.. *smiles* Well, am a bit busy wif life.. And I think I wanna write in malay+english, hehehe.. *giggles* Its fun, mixing both of em'.. Ni crita Roy since da last entry b4 am going to work so mau sambung balik pe yg tercicir kat blakang tu, hehehe.. *giggles* Since nak dkat new year ni, Roy nak wat sedikit pembaharuan laa.. First of all dr segi bahasa dia, mix both languages.. Secondly, mau tulis sekerap yg mungkin (InsyaAllah~).. And.. Tu je kot, wat mase ni.. Hahaha... *laughing out loud*

First of all, alhamdulillah.. Am fine, as always.. Huhuhu.. Ade crita yg baru, slalu je ade crite yg baru but xsmpat nak update blog ni.. (malas sebenarnyer~) Since nak dkat new year ni, Roy dah keje bout 6 months & seperti biasa mum akan dengar masalah Roy, esak tangis Roy, kegembiraan Roy, keseronokan Roy.. Mum yg slalu bg nasihat, ayah pon ade jugak, sis pon same, abg ngan kaka pon same.. Thnks alot ya'll, <3 u so much!! *lotsa smooches* Rasenyer if xde dorang awal2 ni sure Roy dah give up lame dah nak keje, nak dok umah je.. Bukan masalah bsar pon kat tmpat keje but Roy kekadang de probs ngan myself je.. Hahaha, ya'll mesti xcaye kan2?? Tp dats da truth.. I doubt myself.. Dats da main probs pon bukan pasal co-workers sngt pon.. Ade tu, mmg laa ade tp simple je.. Mum dah tulung Roy settlekan dah, huhuhu.. Mum lagi! Hehehe, biasa laa.. Anak mum kan?! I loike~ *giggles* Keje ni mmg mencabar coz sumtimes client ske tnye Qs yg Roy tatau nak jawab pe, seriously~ Qs ssh tahap dewa laa tp senior ade kan, pe lg.. Tnye kat dorng er, hehehe.. Thnks alot u guys!! Hope pasni dpt keje ngan pnuh dedikasi & zero error, huhuhu.. Amin~

Secondly, since da past month my emotions keeps bugging me bout da last break-up & now.. I think I should move on.. I should forget him & move on.. Yes, I think I should kan?? Besides, buat ape I nak ingt bende yg lepas2.. Buat berdarah balik je hati ni, dah laa baru baek.. Ish3~ Baek Roy cari org laen yg Roy tau xkan 'seksa' hati Roy ni lg.. Cari lelaki yg boleh wat Roy hepi.. Lelaki yg can accept me for who I am.. Not b'coz am pretty or daring or luscious or sexy or.. (watever laa kan...) Jadi, baek Roy take a deep breath & juz relex.. Lets my Prince Charming dtng sendiri.. Malas nak cari sendiri.. Wat sakit hati je.. Baek dia dtg kat kte kan2?? Senang.. Huh! Tp harap2 dia felt deeply in love wif me laa, hope so.. Hurmm~

Well, tu je laa kot.. Nak crita lebey2 kang dia kata Roy perasan pulak kat dia, tergila-gilakan dia pulak.. Lagi malu.. Roy ni kalau like sum1, xgi tau coz takot di kecewakan.. (slalu je...) Tp kalau dah suke kan, nak wat cam na.. Terpacul klua jugak laa ayat tu walaupon otak dah cuba sedaya-upaya menahan ayat tu, bibir ni ngan selambenyer mengaku.. Aishh!! Malu bukan kepalang.. Muke merah cam udang kene bakar walaupon dia xnmpak.. Pergh! Penangan 'suka' ni mmg kuat, sekuat berlian laa kate org.. *giggles* Menahan malu ni bukan senang, ssh jugak.. Ish3~ Baru Roy taaaaauuu~~~ (menipu je ni..dlm otak bnyak dah kesimpulan crita cinta yg pahit).. Tp seperti bese, mcm kene reject je.. Tatau laa tp, mcm je kan.. Hurmm.. Mcm dia kate, 'ikot je flow'.. Eh, tu mcm ayat Roy kat sume guys yg ske kat Roy ke?! Aaargh!! Btol laa tu, Roy kene reject lagi... TTIIIIIIDDAAAAKKK~~~~~

Xpe laa, ikot je flow tu.. (dlm hati kate, "kecewa lg..bile laa Prince Charming Roy nak dtg ni??") Kot2 dia ske kat Roy ke, hape ke? (iye laa kot..mcm xcaye je??) Urmm.. Okay laa, kalau dia btol2 ske kat Roy kang Roy tulih lg pasal dia kalau x.. Haaiiihh~ Ikot je flow tu kan...

Tu je laa coretan Roy wat mase ni coz mate dah layu, mau tdo berbantalkan harapan & berselimutkan impian.. Smoga ya'll take care & jgn lupe love is everywhere (huh, yer laa tuh~) Buh-bye~ *smooches*

Assalamualaikum..
Hurmm.. I dun really felt dat happiness at work.. Everytime I go for work being a TL surely I hate it so.. I hate her.. She is so arrogant.. Why can't she be nice like other Drs?? Why she needs to raise her voice?? Why?? I hate her!! Everytime am happy for being a TL she always ruined it, always!! Other Drs I can handled but her, aarrrghh.. Such an arrogant bitch!! I heard she wanna went for Haj.. I really hope dat she gonna turn nice but, fuck!! I dun think so.. Wif an attitude like her surely its hard to change.. Then I also heard dat her childrens are naughty & loud juz like her, hahahaha.. No wonder her hubby dumped her.. Served her well!!!!

Now...

Assalamualaikum & salam sejahtera to all.. Am so happy coz am already working & gettin' along wif all da staf well.. I juz want to improve sum of my ability such as when passing da report, I should be more alert about da patients & serve all da meds quickly without any medical mistakes.. Dats all!! Am trying to improve it.. Wish me gud luck yaa!!

And also.. I have a lover!!! :*

Hola~
I got 1 special news to share wif all of yaa (if u can read diz), hahhahaha.. Am gonna work next month!! Aaaarrgghh~ Am so scared laa, how? I never work b4.. If I make a mistake, wat will happen? Am so scared laa.. Hurmm.. And.. And.. Am gonna wear my old& I dunno if I can fit into dat, huhuhu.. Since I've gain a few weight.. Okay, am gonna make my self prepare for diz (mentally expecially).. Relex~

Since am not updating my blog nearly a month am gonna write it all, kuikuikui.. I missed writing on diz, huhuhu.. Dunno why? Maybe coz I dun have my own diary? Hehehe.. And I dunno wether I should write to much tho.. Well...

First happy event.. After so many weeks begging my parents, they have let me signed up for Driving Lesson at Samudera, Jln Enggang.. Now am waiting for my L licence.. Huhuhu.. Can't wait to learn how to drive, yippi!! I've passed my JPJ Test at Danau Kota wif flying colours (48/50), kuikuikui.. Actually I was so confused wif da Qs & decided to juz let it go so I waited until da last minute to send my answers.. I can't believe my eyes dat I've passed coz da Qs was tough.. Hehehe.. I've only waited a week after my KPP to take da JPJ Test.. Then another week to attend class on cars & practical at Setapak, Off Jln Gombak.. Then.. Urmm, I can't rememba laa pulak.. Lol~

Second happy event.. Yesterday my mom cooked my favs dish, Mee Ladna.. Kuikuikui.. I eat so much dat I think I've gain wt, hahahaha~

Third happy event.. After a few week askin' for a new external hardisc.. My mum asked my brottha to buy 2 for my sis & me.. And I got it yesterday, yahoo!! 500G for RM 300, SEAGATE External Hardisc.. Now I can save so many things inside, hahahha~

Lastly is not my happy event.. Some of my old buddies wanna have a date wif me & well.. My parents dun let me so am stuck again at home, again.. Man!! I only got to surf da internet for realeasing my tension, urmm GREAT isn't it??!

Its all I think dats happening in diz pathetic life of mine.. Wat else? Urmm~

Okay, dats all.. See yaa~

Single momma...

Urmm, I used to imagine to have my own childs without havin' to marry any1.. Without havin sex.. Mmm, am I crazy?? Well, maybe.. Hahaha.. It actually happen a few years back, I read in a newspapaer.. There is an experiments in 1 of Englands top university.. They say dat they can make a sperm from a donor skin cell (single women who want a child).. Then if its true, I want to be the 1st candidate!! I really want it so badly...

I suddently loves cute babies when I am 20.. After my practical at a nursery.. They were so cute!!

Basically, I dun trust MEN!! They are all a LIER!! I try to trust men but in the end.. Hurmm...

I aslo dun trust in marriage.. I dunno wether I believe in COUPLE or not?! Coz every single guy dat am hooked wif are all a PIG!! Urmm.. Why can I find happiness?? If I can't I rather be a single mother of 2.. I loves twin.. A boy & a girl.. Ahmad Danial & Nur Dania.. Apple of my eye.. My sweet kids.. Urmm...

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